It’s been a week into 2009, and here I am reminiscing what 2008 means to me. Well, I have been devoting days and nights for the past one month towards my new role of being a mother that I hardly remember what my life used to be like..huhu (sound pathetic, right!)
The year 2008 started with us deciding to try to get pregnant after almost 5 years of being married. I was like am I ready for it? will I be a good mom? will I miss my carefree life without kid in tow, the extra sleeping time, the leisure days..
But we thought just give it a try and God answered my prayers by giving me the best birthday present. (Actually on my birthday, I still didn’t know I was pregnant) The 2 lines on the pregnancy test kit made me realized that there was a whole lot more to think apart from myself and Hubby.
By May and June I had a terrible time with morning sickness. Hubby went to US for 3 weeks for his training. I was at home alone all that time (and both of us survived..heh). And by August I was all energetic again, doing the preparation for Niece’s wedding and bunga telur orders.
We decided to buy a house though we were not sure whether we could afford it financial wise (especially with a baby coming). And then it was Ramadhan and Hari Raya season. I conducted the craft classes every now and then, sometimes just to fill up the time, especially when Hubby has to work during weekend or on standby.
Then November came, marking our 5th anniversary. I was hoping that the baby will come out on the anniversary date itself although it was too early from his EDD.
He decided to surprise us on the eve of Aidil Adha..heh..(which was more than a week early from the EDD) diminishing my hope to eat SIL’s lontong, kari and rendang (nevertheless I still ate and causing him stomach pain the first night he came home) And by then, my life was changed completely. The long weekend and end of the year leaves that most people enjoy were spent with me in confinement (and I am still in confinement..huhu!) I told Hubby if we were like before, we will be sleeping till 2pm, wake up and go out, watch movie, window shopping, dine out and come home to watch DVD and sleep at 4-5am, and the cycle goes on.
Now with a son of our own, somehow I think that I have concluded 2008 with another meaningful mark. I am no longer the lady of leisure, doing and thinking as I please, I am now a mom, responsible for the well being of a helpless little creature that we decided to conceive and welcome into this ugly, selfish world.
I might not be the best and perfect mom in years to come, but I vow that I will strive to be a mom that my son will be proud of…and hopefully one that he will never be ashamed of. And that is my new year resolution, for 2009 and many, many years ahead.