The Long Road Home

It’s Saturday and I’m still updating the Friday’s entry. For those who wonder, this pics was taken during my Raya trip to Kedah in Nov ’05. During that time the paddy fields were green and almost fully grown. I’m not sure by the time the flood hit most of the parts in Kedah, those farmers had managed to sow their paddy or not. As I hardly spend my years in Kedah, I can say that I hardly know the cycle of these paddy business, maybe just the basic of it, but how long it takes from one stage to another, well don’t ask me…hehehhe..

The entry title once again reminded me of a book I’ve read by the same title. Written by Danielle Steel, given to me by someone dearest almost 8 years ago, I still have it in my possession. The story about the abused, unwanted and unloved daughter left me weeping for days. Those kind of stories make me wonder why people choose to have children, is it because they choose that path of life because that’s the best life can offer them and that’s the best they can offer to the child, or because majority have children since that’s the most natural and normal cycle of life. Someone uttered to me once, get married, just go with the flow, get pregnant and have children. Well, maybe that’s not me entirely…For those who might feel offended, take your offensive remarks somewhere else, I don’t need it here…hahaha..

Anyway, to wrap up this entry, I found my home now, though it’s a long road to here, with all the hurdles, discouragement, anger and dissatisfaction especially from those who should care the most and love unconditionally, honestly I have no regret, but I never lost the hope that someday they will be able to see things from my point of view..hopefully!